Trying times and the way it goes...

Alone Again - Spiritual Rez


Willie (Live) - Cat Power


Let's Dance - M. Ward


Just bought on itunes two albums by M. Ward which I am listening to right now. I heard this bowie cover on my "Peasant" pandora station and enjoyed it mucho. Kazuya was having me listen to some M. Ward earlier and I like the emotion conveyed and the tempo of most of the songs. Much slower and mellow and full of reflection! Matt's got such a sweet voice I could listen to it all day! Did some positive work with Cat Power, Bright Eyes and some others.

Well I'm trying to write this outline paper for one of my ethics classes on a world war 2 medal of honor winner. I just have to outline why I am writing about him for my 15 page paper due at the end of the semester, or sometime in April, and discuss some moral issues he faced and what made him a good leader or something like that. I'm doing this submarine commander from world war 2 that did some nuts shit sinking all these ships, sometime I don't condone but I dunno seemed kind of absurd this shit he did so it intrigued me. I guess you can read more about him here.

These nights and days are getting pretty fucked up. I am tired and the winter is starting to depress me. Last night I watched How I Met Your Mother, downed 15 beers and smoked half a pack from my window sill. I then went to class. After being extremely unproductive all day I came home and took a nap. Then I had to wake up to do more work due tomorrow. I cannot wait till friday, whenever I turn in all my work due for the week. Then I can sort of relax, but I can't promise I won't still be depressed! How exciting!

Big Bills - Flosstradamus ft. Caroline Polachek


Engineering sucks. Don't do it. I mean I'm sure the opportunities for work afterwards are good, but do something you love to do or else you'll hate yourself for it. I don't hate myself for it, I like the idea of it, just the application is kinda lame. There is too much work and the expectations are far too high. I can handle it, it just pisses me off. I gotta wake up and sleep at random times, because that's my only option. I stay up late hours doing work and rarely get to sleep, so I nap during the day and then can't sleep on a normal schedule when I get the chance! Most of my friends are in the same boat, we have poor planning I guess you could say, but fuck it that's life. Other than that little complaint, actually I really don't hate it at all. In fact I love every minute of it. For that reason I probably realize that I like where I am at and that's why I haven't quit yet. Engineering is alright. Do it if you like.

I miss skateboarding right now. The weather was TERRIBLE. Rain, sleet, snow, random ass puddles all over the place. Puddles in places that defy most of physics, ones you can't see and don't expect and then you end up walking around with a wet sock and a puddle in your shoe. It's so easy to fall too, the sidewalks are all icy right now. I was walking down a hill and started sliding. I didn't fall but I couldn't stop. So I just kept sliding down to the bottom of the hill till I hit a rough spot and was able to finally gain some traction. It was cool I guess, made me look kind of stupid even though I stayed on my feet. I would like to go skateboarding but I don't really know where, plus there is so much work to be done. As soon as the roads clear up I am gonna get back on my board. Till then looks like I am stranded.

This update was pretty random. I don't really have any good pictures to go along with it either. I need a new digital camera, the screen on mine right now is broken so you can't see what you are taking pictures of or what settings you are on. So I just have to trust it and wait till I upload them to see. I guess I could get it fixed at a store but I am too lazy. So I don't really know what to do, just complain about it for now I guess? Regardless, I want more pictures for my daily blogs. Anyway, I have to get back to this paper.

And with that I leave you, Evan Smith